It’s almost like watching grass grow in a way. When it rains the grass grows faster. When life knocks us down we seem to learn more than when we’re standing up. Okay, so that wasn’t my best analogy, but what I’m trying to say is that when we’re down on the ground, seeing things from a different point of view, we can really learn a lot about ourselves. I’ve learned a lot about myself over the past year, which hasn’t been the best, but I have plenty to be thankful for.
Finding the right words to express my thoughts isn’t always easy. I’m sure plenty of you know what it’s like to see something so beautiful or so amazing that anything you say or write about it hardly seems to do it justice. I mean, breathtaking seems to be a bit of an overused word for those types of situations to me. And what about the other side of life? I know for a fact it isn’t always sunshine and rainbows. How do you describe those dark days when you feel like you can’t get any lower?
When you’re frustrated or angry or lonely, things can get very confusing for yourself as well as others. You can overcomplicate things. You can say things you don’t really mean. You can hide and pretend everything’s okay when all you really need is someone to talk to, to listen to you, and to offer comfort. As much as venting is sometimes necessary, I don’t like dumping my feelings on my friends even when they tell me that they’re there for me no matter what. It makes me feel bad, especially when I don’t know how to explain myself and it comes out wrong. Maybe the simple fact is just that there isn’t a word for everything.
I’m sorry if I seem to be skipping from one topic to another, but I feel like all of this is related in one way or another. Sometimes what we take for granted are the things that we need the most and a lot of us seem to realize that only once those things are gone. When those things that we rely on are missing we learn what lies within ourselves. We can find our strength just when all the light seems to have faded away and then there is hope again.
“You never know how strong you are until being strong is your only choice.”
Believe in yourself because you are stronger than you think you are. Believe in those who believe in you, who give you hope, the ones who keep you going and the ones who help push you forward into whatever tomorrow has to offer. This is to the ones who pick us up when we fall down and to the ones that give us courage. You are the light in the dark.